(to be) freed

i. id

it's hard to see the clear outlines of my fists

but is it because i can't see through the tears that seem to

blur the world

more often as i realize

or is it because of the

anger

how dare they?

shame

do not let it get to you.

it's just a passing feeling.

fear

there's nothing to fear when we're here.

there's nothing to fear when we're here.

disgust

they're monsters.

...

(or is it you?)

i

i want

i want to

i want to feel

i want to feel something,

anything.

now.

Now.

N O W.

ii. superego

but it's a mess we don't want to untangle

you're shoving them away again.

a mess, ages old that's best remained tangled and forgotten

until it chokes us.

i'll be okay.

we're okay.

iii. ego

not now

but soon. :)

...

...

k.s.